As morning broke today, a peculiar sensation washed over me. Something felt oddly amiss – an unsettling shift in the air that I couldn’t quite put my finger on. The world outside seemed to continue in its rhythm, yet a disconcerting feeling lingered.
Then it suddenly dawned on me. The 28th of October isn’t just another day on the calendar but a sad milestone marking yet another year since the untimely passing of my beloved big brother, Buck Adams.
A staggering 15 years have slipped by since that fateful day. Yet I still find myself grappling with disbelief every single October. Buck, with his boisterous laughter and infectious vitality, seemed invincible to his close friends and family. He was the one whom I imagined would outlive us all.
The Legacy of Buck Adams
Buck was the guy who believed he could put rocket ships on the moon (that he would build in his garage), and turn a low-budget adult movie into an epic action film. He was not just my big brother – he was everyone in the industry’s big brother, and many people loved Buck as much as I do. He was just one heck of a nice guy.
Beyond his on-screen persona, Buck was celebrated for his commitment to advocating for performers’ rights. He was known for his sense of humor, generosity and solidarity, often standing up for those who struggled to make their voices heard in the industry. His untimely death in 2008 left a void in the industry, but his legacy continues to inspire and shape the world of adult film.
Each day is marked by his absence. Every shared joke he would have loved, every family gathering that feels incomplete without him, serves as a poignant reminder of the void he left behind. I miss you every day, big brother. You may have departed from our lives, but your spirit remains interwoven in our memories. Until we meet again, dear Buck, rest well.
Cadence13 recently published the first three installments of their new podcast “Once Upon a Time… In the Valley” – a series on the classic age of adult cinema. Episode #3, “We Kinda Made it Hardcore“, features a short interview segment with Ginger Lynn where she shares a story involving the two of us. My recollection of events is very different and I feel a need to set the record straight.
These first three episodes (I hope they make more) focus on Traci Lords and the adult industry fallout after everyone figured out she was underage while filming all but one of her movies. Many of my colleagues (Kelly Nichols, Suze Randall, Tom Byron, Veronica Hart and more) from the 80s-era are interviewed – myself included. My brother, Buck Adams, is also mentioned. Ginger shares her memories of the day the two Lynns first met.
Ginger Lynn tells a story about meeting me for the first time at Harry Reems’ house, and that would have been the summer of ‘84. She goes into detail about confronting me when I told her my intention to use the professional name “Amber Lynn” because she didn’t like my choice. “You can’t be Amber Lynn! I’m Ginger Lynn!” She goes on to say that the argument turned into a drunken Amber vs. Ginger catfight culminating in us having sex on a stairway with Harry and Jamie Gillis (who I was dating at the time and had met through John Leslie) spectating.
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I have to inform my fans that this story is not true and definitely did not happen. I never had a conversation with Ginger regarding my name when we first met, nor did we have a catfight, or (sorry guys) a sexual encounter on a stairway. Ginger Lynn arrived after Jamie and I were already there. She was introduced to me outside on the beachfront patio, had obviously had been drinking and was carrying a bottle of tequila around. Ginger was very sweet upon meeting me, and made a pass almost immediately, asking if “I liked girls”. A very short and sweet moment passed between us and then she disappeared into the house with Harry and up to his bedroom.
There was no catfight, no screen name discussion and no sex on the stairs. Again – I was already an actress, working in the industry as Amber Lynn, and had started shooting film and video in early 1983 – kicking off what would become an amazing career with Vixens In Heat which we shot in September of that year. As mentioned earlier, the first meeting with Ginger didn’t occur until 1984 at Harry’s.
Ginger Lynn Allen and I share the same exact middle and last name. The first video photographer who shot me was Bobby Hollander (for Personal Touch 3 and Centerfold Celebrities with John Leslie) and he wanted me to use the name “Amber Lynn Lane” – as back then the top female talents were often named after streets in the San Fernando Valley (Laurel Canyon, Desiree Lane etc.). I didn’t like that idea, I wanted to keep it to just my actual middle name, “Lynn”, which is what I was called growing up, and my agent and porn historian Bill Margold made him correct it early on in production.
Amber Lynn®️ has been my official USPTO registered trademark for years now, and even as a newcomer to this industry 37 years ago – I never wanted it any other way! I get deep into the early adult days in my upcoming autobiography, so stay tuned to the site for updates.
I have reached out to Cadence13 with my side of the story, and also spoken to IAFD in regards to their use of an incorrect screen name on some titles – to which an editor named “Titbug” replied: “I fully agree that directors and producers miscrediting performers is disrespectful and hurts performers’ brands. But there is nothing that we can do: we are simply listing facts.”
In spite of these little speed bumps, I thoroughly enjoyed participating in the podcast, and encourage everyone to give it a listen. Lili Anolik and her team did a terrific job, and I thank them for including me.
Today is the 11th anniversary of the passing of my big brother, Buck Adams, and I’m spending a quiet day missing him.
Buck starred in over 600 adult films and had just started a new video production company right before we lost him. He was a 5 time AVN/XRCO award winner, and is a member of the AVN Hall of Fame. Here he is interviewing Lemmy on the Motorhead tour bus circa early 2006.
Buck Adams interviews Lemmy – a conversation for the ages.
I miss my brother every day. If you knew, or have any fond memories of him – please feel free to leave them in the comments. My brother was a great man and a hero to many. He will be missed by all.
I love having a place to share memories from my career, if fans appreciate them. Back in 2003, I was involved in the Free Speech Coalition’s 16th annual Night of the Stars. I was honored to be a recipient of the FSC’s Lifetime Achievement Award.
The event was attended by a “Who’s Who?” of the adult entertainment industry, and is one of the fondest memories of my career.
This year the Lifetime Achievement Awards for Actor and Actress went to brother and sister Buck Adams and Amber Lynn, both of whom began careers in adult in the 80s. Both Adams and Lynn performed in hundreds of adult projects during their careers, winning numerous awards for their work.
My brother and I were both honored on the night, and I’m bringing this up tonight, in part, to let him know how much he is missed.
